back to winter

I don’t know why but i was never really a fan of wednesdays and thursdays. I never really figured out why or what was about these days that make me feel anxious.

And while i see women in all kind of outfits, summer dresses, reyban sunglasses, jimmy choo sandals i feel like i miss winter.

There is something about winter that gives me comfort i don’t know if it’s the big sweaters, the blankets or a warm cup of tea. Maybe it is because i am a winter baby.

Don’t get me wrong i love summer but i love summer only when i’m on the beach drinking cocktails. There is just something about starbucks dates, cozy sweaters, christmas that makes me happy.

Purpose

I have been dealing with finding a purpose my whole life. And thinking that i am not the only one feeling this way always kept me up at night. So why is that?

Why do we struggle with finding a purpose when we almost always know what we’re passionate about. We always have some hobbies, interests, dreams, goals. So why is it so hard to pursue them?

There are so many questions that i could ask, and so many answers i could find but do they really justify it all?

We live in a generation where we count our worth depending on the likes and followers. Where we don’t pursue what we love because we’re scared of the judgment. Where we build our lifes depending on how others want us to live them.

I think in the process we just forget who we are, we just put it in a box and burry it somewhere in our closet and then when we’re vulnerable we open it and remember what we’re passionate about, who we want to be.

If any of you reading this think that you don’t have a purpose? Let me tell you what it is.

Your purpose is to make yourself proud first, before you make your parents, friends, spouse, partner, kids proud, you should make yourself proud of yourself.

We are being suppresed to talk, to fight for what we want, to believe in what we want. And in the world like this it’s extremely important to realize that making yourself happy is your purpose.

Purpose lies beneath all of us, we just need to be brave enough to dig and find it.