The lack of inspiration and vacation are responsible for my lazy ass not writing anything.
But i decided to write about independance.
Stuff happened over the last few years, months, weeks and i have come to realization that i’m proud of myself.
I am 21, soon to be 22 i have my 2 jobs, i live alone, i am educating myself and yes i’m struggling but would i change it and go back to live with anyone from my family again? No.
And no it’s not because i hate everyone it’a just because the freedom and independance that i have now have made me grow and mature so much and the whole experience is building me and keeping me on the right path to become the woman i want.
It is hard of course, after work i have to do everything alone, clean, cook, do the loundry, pay the rent, the bills but it’s all worth of having my own few walls, my shelter and my space. I do enjoy being alone, i am a one wolf pack, i need it and i am very selfish with it. With my time, my freedom, my creativity, my growth, my inner peace and my mental health.
I think this is very important, to spend time with yourself, to live with yourself, i have learned a lot about myself, as an example i absolutely despite doing the loundry and i really have a passion for hanging 18372 pictures on my walls.
You probably must thinking i am having so much fun, parties, one night stands, wild nights but no mostly what i do is read, write, sing (a lot) and cuddle my cats. I am enjoying this period of my life and i think at some point if i find a partner i will really think good about when and if i wanna move in with them.
People need to learn how to be independent, it’s so important to depend on no one else but yourself and live everyday with a responsibility it changes you as a person, it builds character, personality and it makes you appreciate little things more.
I know this is pretty much a boring topic to write about but since i’ve been busy lately i just wanted to express how grateful i am to be at this level at such a young age and how grateful i am to have my 4 walls and complete freedom. Do i know what the hell am i doing? No. But i am really enjoying the journey of learning.